Wishes

How I wish I had wings .. That will take me far away from the place I am

To a place my heart desires..

How I wish for the adventures .. the road less taken
Could also accept my dreams

How I wish I had the courage .. To say the things never said ..
No unsaid things waiting to be shared

How I wish I had no fear for life .. A life full of love and passion

Not a life of regrets and secrets
How I wish to yearn for life as I yearn for death .. Death a definite state
Fulfilling every dying wish while I am still alive..

Only if wishes were stars in the sky ..
The current stars also could never suffice the cause ..

pic Courtesy - Van Gogh's 'Starry Night over the Rhone'

Its time for Gifts ...

Wondering whats so cheerful about turning 25 ??

Nah, not that I have become a lil more wise, neither gaining some grey hair

but receiving early birthday presents, woohoo

This ones from my sis .. Love you too dear,

Its the time to remember there is still someone who remembers your birthday and takes all the trouble to buy and post you a gift, just to make your day a special one

Also received a pair of earrings from GRT jewels, my fav .. couldnt take a better picture, so couldnt post the pic .. I guess its time to buy a new mobile or a new camera ... What do you suggest ??

I am a rock

I am a rock

Can’t shrink, can’t grow

I am a rock

Can’t smile, can’t cry

Lying on the shore,

Neither the sun nor the wind can break

Only the water can wear me out

I am a rock

Can’t feel, can’t share

I am a rock

Can’t bleed, can’t break

Out of emotions, ain’t no difference between me and a rock

I am alone

No hope, no goal

No death, no love

I am a rock

Done with the journey, already at the cliff

One plunge in to the abyss

To shatter my rigidity

I am a human, can’t act like rock anymore

There and Back Again ..

Its been one year since I was in this state of emotions. But now I am on the other side of it.

Faces, its faces everywhere

Some happy, some sad

Some Confused, some enlightened

I am lost and trying to figure out

What is real and what is ignorance

Faces, just expressionless human faces

Some on the brink of breaking

Some on cloud 9, partying

I was there, hoping for my turn

I will be in one of those states too

Pretty soon, its gonna be my turn

Faces, its just a mask on

Not long, even I will put on my best

Like the toy on the stall

waiting for the kid to pick me

Not long, even I will be tracked

Faces, some happy and some sad

After all thats the only way to express myself

Boring Day

Breakfast after a nice 7 hours sleep is a luxury at IIM B. But having hot tea with bread and omelette is also nice. So woke up quickly and stood in a queue to get my breakfast. It so turns out that the chef prefers his omelette salty. And he totally screwed up my breakfast. To counter the salt took sweet-lime juice which wont allow me to have tea immediately. Sadly bid bye to hot tea and mess. So vetti and had nothing to do in room. Started watching HIMYM season 7. Completed the entire season. As usual skipped my lunch. Thought would take lil tour around the campus but it started to drizzle and I am back in my room cozy and comfortable. The end result I slept again .. missed my tea once again during the snack-time ... Finally its 6, time to for the only class I have. Reached class a lil early and found myself a corner seat where the prof's attention is not garnered for sure. Finally when its time to swipe the card, realized that I didnt get it. Crap, there is not point in attending the class when you dont get the attendance. So I left the class when the prof was about to start. Back in my room.. Such a dead day .. Cant remember a single moment of it well spent.

The one where I visited NGO ..

Here I go again...

Since I am not attending my dear friends wedding, I wanted to compensate it by doing something good.. I don't know if I can ever compensate what i am missing..

To get some peace and rest my guilty soul I volunteered for the NGO visit during the Orientation Program for the facchas ... (PGP1's)

Today, I visited Samarthanam, a school for the blind and disabled. They provide not the basic education but help the blind and disabled in higher education, teach them computer and English skills. They make them self dependent and able to work in the competitive world.

After having a quick glimpse at the facilities they have, we met few of the residents.There were a bunch of very enthusiastic girls..

They are jus 3-4 yrs younger to us but filled with so much life. Everyone was so passionate and full of zeal. They were very talented and had hobbies like singing and dancing. They even performed for us. Only if we were so bold enough and returned the same gesture.

They just had one single request, to help them out during exams by spending some time or in lending our voice for recording the audio books.

It was a very humbling experience.. We can always learn from others...

The one with the Consult....

I know.. 3 posts in a row is a lil over blogging these days but this does also reminds me how much I am missing my dear friend .... Hmmm :'( Mummy ... or rather :'( Rads ...

So all I did to come up with this post was, after spending a lazy first week.. need to pull up my socks and gear for the race again.. Two case submissions in 3 days ..

The first one, I thought I don’t have to work on this because i have a consult in my team and who else is good at globing other than the consults ... so we decided to meet the night before the submission. Decided on what to write and divided the responsibilities. As for me I jus nonchalantly did my part and left for the day hoping that the consult will spin his magic wand around and make an awesome report out of it...

Next day the class was scheduled at 11:45. I got up at 9:00 and checked my inbox for the report.. nothing.. Oh the mail might be on the way.. Let’s not strain myself and go have some breakfast...

10:00 AM - Checked my inbox again... no new mail.. Hmm now I am a lil nervous.. The consult had a class at 10:00 AM so if he didn’t send a mail till now then he is not going to send it any more ...

The reality draws upon me .. OMG we have to submit a report in 90 mins .... Then I started collating the work and come up with some recommendations for this company .. Me, no good at saving my own report should come up with amazing recommendations to save a million dollar company ... huhhh

11:36 AM - Finally the consult decides to reply.. and mails that he is going to get the printout...

11:45 AM - As I stepped inside the class all the groups were submitting their cases.. The prof silently makes count of the no. of reports.. Looks up and addresses to the entire class .. "Still one group need to submit" .. I sheepishly raise my hand and say .. “Sir, its my group. They are on their way.."

11:50 AM - Still no sign of the consult and other team member...

11:55 AM - someone opens the door and makes a silent entry.. Huh!!! They are here. But rather than submitting the report they decide to sit in the last bench...

What’s wrong with them.. When the instructions are damn clear that the prof won’t accept the report after the class, these people sit so relaxed in the last bench..

12:15 PM - The prof finally decides to ask again for the group to submit the case.. At last we submit the report. Now i concentrate on what he was trying to prove in the last 30 mins..

He started discussing the method and approach for the case...

Shit!!! Was it supposed to be done this way... pop goes the report...

Moral: Earlier I thought 'since the consult is in my group I don’t have to work',

now I think, 'since the consult is in my group, I have to work...'